Lame

Assalamualaikum,

LAME!

Throwback

Assalamualaikum,

The moment I saw 'The Thing', I was so surprised. My hand was shaking. And i felt like my heart break into pieces. Heart beating so fast until lost it's own rhythm. Feel like crying and I just can't believe what I saw. Yeahh! I've lost my words. For the first time I've got nothing to say. Seriously. This is not sooo me. And until now, my hands is freezing. Wondering? I am sorry. I just have nothing left to say. I hate this feeling. -__-"

Worst nightmare

Assalamualaikum :)

Dear you, did you know that I have this one nightmare that I can classify it as one of the worst nightmare ever. And I am hoping so tight that this nightmare will never come to our life. Lemme tell you this :

My worst nightmare: That one day, any girl will take my spot. That one day a girl will sit with you, laugh with you, smile with you, and have a good time with you. That one day that girl will realize that you're amazing. That one day that girl becomes your girlfriend. That one day she takes my spot for good. That one day you will forget about me because you're too busy thinking about her. Yeah! that scares me the most. Because, I want to be that girl. I want to be the only girl. I don't want anyone to take my spot. Why? Because if anyone take my spot; there won't be anyone else who can take yours.... which is probably going to be the worst reminder that I lost my spot to her.

Enough said.
p/s : Ily and Imysm

Deleted. Deleted. Deleted. I am sorry.

Assalamualaikum :)

Dear my sweet honey bunney darling boo,

I've deleted all the entries from 2009 - 2010. Entries that make you felt uneasy everytime you read it. I am sorry. I was too blind and heartless to let you felt that way. I am sorry :'( I didn't realize that those entries are still in my blog list. If only I knew it earlier, I would definitely delete it without need you to remind me syg. I swear. Rupanya banyak sangat entries yang I tak delete lagi. Haihhhh! Sorry sayang. Now, everything is clear. No more memories. It's only about my story and you. I love you dear. More than so much. :)


Till then, take care MHNAH <3 font="" nbsp="">

Lame

Assalamualaikum & Hi :)

I am currently at SAS Workshop right now. 20 minutes left before this hectic seminar comes to it ends. Phewwww! It is really make my head burn until the highest level. Susah yang teramat susah okeh untuk analyse all the data. Sebenarnya dari pagi tadi memang focus. Serious! Tak tipu.  Too concentrate until this last 20 minutes, feel like vomiting balek semua ilmu yang penuh di jiwa. Phuuiihhh :o

And, Suddenly, I am missing someone. Someone that even my heart will beating so fast when my mind think about him. It is something like involuntary action you know. -__-" The truth is I don't have much ideas to blog. Since it is already late noon, so idea macam tak banyak. Hihihihi. Bosannya post. Sebenarnya nak post few sentences je. Here we go. And this is of course for him. :)

"I am missing you so fucking much until I think I might going nut if this is forever. -__-"
"Fact that I'm a woman and we woman cannot hide our feeling well and we need to spit it out to feel relieve -__-"
"You might think that I am crazy. But what to do, It is true after all :)"


P/S : Sarang hae oppa. Till then, take care :)

Overthinking

Assalamualaikum & Hi :)

Dear you, I'm so sorry for dragging you in my own "stupid theory". The truth is, I've been like this since I was in matriculation. yeah! You can tell me how long I've been in this situation kan? I am not suffering, I swear. But for all this while, I've just let that theory haunted me and conquer  my whole body without any hesitation. It was me who have the power to control my own instinct. *With the help of HIM of course* Like you told me before. It is all up to me whether to be a positive thinker or let this funking things disturb my life. T_T
I can't help myself. This theory just attacked me when I am in my paralyzed state. I know it well that this theory will never turn into something that even brain can accept it. But still, I wanted to prove it true. It is so ridiculous heh? Memang pn -___-" tak mungkin la semua tu. Please la. I kan pure science student. Bukannye budak amek sastera ke hape. Pathetic sungguh. Memang sangat mengasihankan. Dan, I dah drag you untuk masuk dalam dunia I. Minta maaf. Mesti awak rasa saya pelik. Imma weirdo! T_T

To tell you the truth, I memang sedaya upaya untuk ubah mentality negative yang I ade ni. It just I don't have gut to change my theory. Sumpah I memang ntah hape2. -___-" I try. Tak tipu. Cuma perkara ini sangat membelenggu. So sorry for a million times. I have no face to look at you actually. Pray for me ok? And Please.Please.Please stay and stick with me till the end. Help me to improvise my theory and change it into our theory. Tolong juga untuk terima keburukan I ni. ILoveYou,Love!

p/s : I am 23. And I am still thinking about this rubbish. This is so horrible. Even brain can't accept it. T_T Feel sorry for myself.

Long story

Assalamualaikum & Hi :)

Dear blog, You've been forgotten these days. I'm so sorry. Its a long story though.

p/s: Iloveyouhamdihamid. I'm sorry for the things I did wrong. I'm so so helpless. I cannot stop myself from thinking too much about that matter!Its killing me. With all the stress that overwhelmed me,make me half crazy. Pathetic! I'm sorry for causing you so much troubles T_T Please be with me. Always and forever.