for me .:)

it ain't easy to make a decision.

it ain't easy to make decision in life. it so confusing when you have to choose whether to take this path or the other. you are only given a very short period to think and make a decision.everything seems to be so fast.both path has it's own benefit. once you choose,you cannot turn back .this is not try an error decisions,this is about your future. and decision has been made. yeah! i totally made the decision which is i hope it was a right decision. if it is not,i just have to face it .whatever obstacles that come in front of me after this,it all deoends on me because i am the one who made the decisions.

"Ya Allah.aku memohon kepadamu.semoga keputusan yang aku buat ini adalah keputusan yang terbaik dalam hidupku.aku ikhlas dan redha dengan ketentuan yang Kau beri kepadaku.kerana aku tahu itu yang sebenar-benarnya terbaik untuk aku.sesungguhnya Kau lebih mengerti apa yang terbaik untuk diriku.Amin"

this are the most toughest decision that i have to made in my life.sumpah! sume timbang tara telah dibuat.tolak tambah bahagi darab sume da buat.tapi,aku masih tidak pasti sebenarnye.macam2 anasir negative yang dok berlegar-legar kat dalam kepala.tapi tak boleh dilayan sebab siapa kamu menentukan cara kamu melihat.kalau nak jadi orang yang positive,mesti kne sentiasa lihat semua benda dalam perspective yang positive.neutral kan charge negative yang ada dalam badan . ye!kamu boleh ye norafilah .say no to tak boleh.:)
keluarga dan sahabat2 akan sentiasa sokong dengan apa saja yang kau buat. kau ada sokongan dari mereka.buat ikot kata hati kau.pedulikan apa org mahu cakab.sebab again, they don't know a thing.kau yang akan berhadapan dengan semuanya,selagi merasakan diri berada dilaluan yang betul,insyaAllah semua akan oke.:D

go me!go me!:)

with love:fifi

exhausted

pandang lappy, takde perasaan. baru lepas submit assignment protein through on9.
fuh!naseb sempat sebab time remaining ade lagi 2h 45min.kalau tak sempat tadi,
tambah lagi satu episod duka saya dengan subject ni .-__-"
protein,y don't u just treat me well,then end of the story,otak tak payah berat2 nak pk pasal awak tau.*sigh
and the eyes mcam nak mintak katil.'emfi' yg nagh landing kat ats katil tu,macam ngh panggel2 minte dipeluk .
ouh!ngntok gile der skang ni .jam baru kol 9.22p.m tapi mate behave macam da pukul 2a.m.
kroih!kroih!
lab petang tadi amat memenatkan diri,enzyme dekat dalam badan bekerja dengan amat giat.
otak tak berhenti berfikir,kaki tak berhenti berjalan mencari segala bagai apparatus and reagent.=*
sekarang harus berkerja keras untuk presentation PRT esok.ouh .i am so exhausted .
serious dead!!
takde motif kan entry ini.hanya merepek melepaskan tekanan jiwa.hahaha.
tapi,honestly,i enjoy doing all my work.i love it.erk.:)

with love,fifi

quick update

the assignments and the quizes are very overwhelmed.
the problem inside is still under renovation.
go to mines and have fun with girlfriends without have the heart to think about all the problem.
*sigh.
protein's mark was out yesterday ,and i was like very suprised and still,no feeling .
i've started to give up with that subject .
lost my direction,yet i am still have to overcome it .
ouh.i am dead.totally dead.please.somebody give me a guidance.*cannot go ayat aku .

till then:out

aiman tak kesah.:)

duh!ade aku kesah ke kau nak cakab2 ape?tak kesah langsong der.
siyes black .sebab kau tawu ape?tak tawu pe kn?
kau just pandai kritik orang . :)
u choose a wrong person dude.
u deal with me,i mean a new me.so,watch ur move.:)


lot of love:fifi

i can't easily give up .

go me!go me!

use your brain to see not your eyes .:)

*sigh ...hm .belom pn start entry tapi saya da megeluh panjang . ouh .kehidupan sebagai seorang pelajar mmg sangat mencabar .assignments,quizzes,test,exams,presentations,lab and yang paleng tak ley bla is the announcement of the result ,totally buat otak serabot & macam nk meletup.haishhh!!for the subject yang easy breezy and yang bajet2 boleh score tu mmg tak sabar la kan nak tawu result .tapi 4 the tough or killer subjects like protein 2 mmg rase tak nak tawu jek dapat score bape .:/

well,the main reason 4 me 2 write this entry is to share how terrible i feel when i heard Dr.Puad told us about their perspective on this killer subjects.that is metabolism of protein and nucleic acid .fyi ,Dr.Puad are well known with his tough questions in my fac. and last semester,only 3 of his students get A for his subjects and almost of his students are failed.:o

oke.early in this morning we have a class with him .as usual,he will taught us about all the metabolism that occur in our body .bla....bla...bla...and suddenly,he asked us one questions which is i don't remembered what is it because i am kinda of daydreaming today .idk why . surprisingly,no one from us can answer him.even the international students :shillah and mustapha also cannot think the answer .oke .the lec hall was so silent on the dot...........
oke .now Dr.Puad start to told us that "why you cannot answers my questions?because they are not in the slide .you have to think out of the box,evrytime when i start teaching,all of you,will look at the slide without concentrate on what i'm trying to tell.then,when i start to ask u a questions that are not on the slide,you cannot answer it .listen,try to use your brain to see and hear instead of you use your eyes and ear.so that,when there are questions that need you think out of the box,you can answer it properly .don't expect me to give a simple questions like,decribe the pathway of non-essential amino acid in the body,but expect me to ask you,what is the need to have those non essential amino acid in our body?"
oke.when i heard all of his words,one think that come out from my mind is i will be a dead meat after this. ouhh my godness.i need to focus more la on this subject yet i will get 0 marks.i cannot just simply read the lec note and do nothing,i have to relate all the reaction with life .oke .kne pk lbey siket dan effort pn mmg kne lbey.sebab rasenye ,Dr macm seorang yang susah ye utk mmberi markah kesian .help me!!!rase oxygen tak dapat nak smpai kat otak .=x
mmg da nak rase give up jugak tadi sebab rase sngat susah .tapi think positive oke fila .nothing is impossible.hanya usaha yang lebih diperlukan .insyaallah .:)

go me! go me!go biochemist !:)

lot of love:fifi

everyone is born to be beautiful .:)

beautiful is a very significant word isn't it ? ppl can easily judge others by only looking on their look . the one who only have a very fair and smooth skin without no pimples,brown eyes,long eyelashes,perfect nose and all the perfect2 things la will consider as beautiful. for those who doesn't have the 'perfect thing' from ppl eyes tak kan senang2 dicakab cantek . adil kah? tepuk dada tanya la rasa.:) its not a worth thing for you to think whether you are beautiful or not .because everyone in this whole world are deserve to be or to feel that they are beautiful . we have the right .anda mmg cantek?tak percaya?:) pergi depan cermin sekarang and nngok puas2 diri anda .
bahagianya rasa sebab anda ada 2 mata yang boleh melihat,hidung yang mmg sesuai dgn bentuk muka anda.it doesn't matter whether its too kembang or mancung yg penting u can easily breath.then,mulut yang boleh berkata2 dan bulu mata yang cukub pjg utk menghalang segala bagai foreign matter from entering your eyes. duh!! bersyukurnya.:) human being sememangnya sebaik2 ciptaan .da cukub lengkap dan perfect .sesungguhnya Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk setiap hambanya .
thus,its no need la for us to always feel that we are not beautiful.increase your self-confident by saying that 'i am beautiful,everyone is beautiful ':) with this way,u can motivate yourself to always feel confident to talk to ppl and express your thought.
its oke if there are some ppl say directly that you are not beautiful .they just noe noting about you .let them with their perspective .anda hanya perlu senyum and cakab terima kasih .:D sebab awak tak ley nak tutup mulot org kan .biar la mereka .hahahaha . life must goes on yeah .ngee~ then,kalau takde namja yang usha2 korang,tapi usha kawan2 korang ,jgn la rase yang korang tu takde kelebihan .mungkin namja tu respect anda dan tak usha anda . belom masanye lagi .sampai mase nnt,ade la namja yang akan sedar dengan kelebihan and boleh terima korang dngan seadanya. "it's oke to look ugly in front of the men,so that,if they like us,they will like us because of us,but not because of our look ":)

so,be beautiful yeh ppl .<3

lots of love:fifi

duh!!

there's no much thing to write for the time being .
but i am pretty sure that i will write a lot of entry after i finish all the test that comes like a train for this whole week .
i got test almost everyday and im starting to vomit.seeing all the books on my table make me want to throw out .:/

till then :out