Again? Insecure,,,

Assalamualaikum & Hi all

I hate this feeling. The feeling of insecure. I used to have this before. Long time ago. The day when Im still young. The day when I can't stand by my own feets. I thought i will never have to feel this way again. But, unfortunately.. Here I am. Stuck in this feeling. Erghh.Insecure. Well, what else to expect? Not beautiful, no extra ordinary things, no specialties, have nothing. Everything inside me are just too common.HAHAHAHAHHA. Everyone have what I have. What make me differ from them?
Yeah! that the reasons y i always feel insecure. Afraid of losing the person that i love the most. Afraid of being neglected. Afraid of everything. I am insane. yes I am. I am sorry. deeply sorry i've caused so much trouble. Im useless.. And to you, the one that I love, Please don't leave me for them.ILY. Enough said.

*Sleeping is nice. You forget about everything for a liltle while. Goodnight world. Better day tomorrow .:)

Single is beautiful

Assalamualaikum & Hi all .

Here are some love crash story that happened to a friend of mine. Not to mention who she is. Just know her story it just good enough. Well, of course she are one of the wonderful friends that I own. I am glad to know her. Kind, beautiful, smart, loyal and funny ; 5 words that can describe herself as a whole. ( it is for true ok. no bodek2 :p )

So, she has been in love with her boifee for about 2 years. But not for now. Thank god. At first, we all thougt that "ugly fugly stupid" man going to be her true soul mate. Going to be her husband-to be and going to be a man who can protect herself. We put so much trust on him because from all the stories that she told us about him, its all a good attitude of him. how he was care for her, how he was act like a "guardian angel" of her and all the good2 things. And everytime when she told us about him, we can see the happiness through her eyes, and she will keep on grinning. At that moment, we was so happy for her.

BUTTTTT, not for now.. my respect is no longer for him. He is just like an ordinary man who take a woman for granted. come when in need, and go when feel free. SHIT!!! idk! even thought I am not the actor who play in this love story, but i feel betrayed too. How he could just leave my friend just like that. without a strong reasons that at least can make us agree with his fool action.erghh!! it is not once! But twice!!! insane isn't it? HUH!!! i feel hot right here. i swear.my hands are shaking and cold while typing on the keyboard. if he is right in front of me now, im going to slap his face and throw some heels to his head. let he feel how hurt my friends feel! (it is not enough i think. need some extra powerfull action; likee kick his ass.euhh!!)

Hey dude!! who do u think u are. running and leaving scars to my friend's heart! hey, don't expect that she accepted u for the 2nd times because she was so in love with u ok!!! in fact, u are the one who beg for her love!! PHUIHHH!! she just kesian jah!! u think u are so handsome? so kind? so pious? ahhh! i am so sick la when read all ur status update on ur FB! like u are so kind and innocent man! GTH la with all of ur quotes! like i care! absolutely i never care!
Hey! u don't deserve to have my friends as ur soulmate though. she deserve someone better. and fyi, she's not frust at all. she is strong now. she has everythings and going to have a better life without u by her side. u?? have nothing! reja pun tk tentu. naik moto cabok! macam dah gentleman sgt! euh... p la kawen sana dengan perempuan lain yg hang rase baik sgt tu. dok sebok chegite nk tunang segala bagai kan. p la sana. hang ingat kami suma kesah! haihh.. tak heran pon heh. pendirian pn tak tegoh, dok sebok nk pinang anak orang. cait.. u are useless man that i ever know live in this earth yaw!
in fact, we feel so grateful that u leave her now. because to be honest we didn't see that she going to have a bright futures with u!

To my lovely friend: be strong ok. we know that u are ok now. no more frustration things. u go on with ur life beautifully these days. full with joy n no more tears. feel free isn't it? remember, he is not everything to u. but u are everything to us n ur family. live ur life well while waiting for ur mr right to come and propose u. single is simple and less complicated. we love u :)

enough said

Statistically disappointed !

Assalamualaikum & Hi to all

Hurmmmm.... I've seated a statistic test early this morning. The feeling before entering the exam hall is jero. Totally jero. I feel nothing in me. Why should i have this kind of felling? I should feel eager to answer the test. Hurm,the questions are not difficult but also its ain't easy like count 1,2,3. light2 jah!!

Unfortunately, i cannot answer the questions well. Arghhhh!!! yeah!true, i managed to answer all the questions, but whether it is true or not, i'm not so sure.. I'm just wrote whatever that came across in my mind and just picit2 the calculator until it comes out with a number, and i wrote it as an answer. Im not sure whther the method that i used to count the answer is right. some bad feeling keep on playing in my head since i've finished the test. I feel like all my answer is incorrect :( why did this happened to me. im blank..

yeah!!! this surely my fault. study last minutes, lack of doing the exercises, lack of asking, lack of preparation, LACK OF EVERYTHING!!! this is math yaw!! u cannot easily read all the note without do the exercises!! wrong technique of study. whose fault is this? ITS ME,MYSELF! always take things for granted! serve u right! :((( i am totally disappointed. this is just the 1st test. i should score it well, but i miss it. KUUUCIIIWAAAA!!!
hurm, talk to much is useless for now. i cannot turn the time back.Let bygone be bygone. the damage has been done. I just can put a hope that i will pass this test and i am badly hope that the total percentage for this test is only 20% instead of 30%. ameeenn.

Moral of the story:
no last minute study!!!! u will regret. Trust me!


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